I haven’t posted anything about my relationship in such a long time… but I must vent.
I guess the biggest “fault” of this relationship is that I have to act like a “mom.” I’m trying to help you, so when you brush me off and act like paying your debts isn’t a big deal, of course I’m going to get upset. Why? Because you’re going to end up in a shit hole and I’m going to have to be the person to clean it up. Like it’s always been for the past 3+ years. I don’t know what more to do? All the projects and school work I did so you could barely graduate because you had messed up in school every year before. Confronting people for you because you were tired of being treated like crap, but “didn’t know what to do.” God damn, I even stayed up til 7 in the morning while you slept to do your college entry project which got you into college. Like really? Who has done that much? Better yet, who has done that much even after constantly being treated like shit? I mean yeah, sure, things aren’t like that at all between us anymore, but you have yet to take responsibility of your life. And I am the one who pays for it. Emotionally and financially. And, it’s not like I expect you to bend backwards for me, I just want you to take initiative of your own life because I’m tired of it. You want to go places, move out, and do things yet you lack the motivation and effort to achieve anything, even getting just applying for a job.
I don’t know what to do anymore… I don’t understand why things are constantly like this even if I’ve mentioned it a million times, especially since this is the exact reason why we broke up last time. God damn, I’m tired of trying to understand and I’m sure tired of all this bullshit. I’m tired of sacrificing my well being and happiness for yours, this isn’t what a relationship is supposed to be like. We’re supposed to work together and you’ve hardly worked with me at all.
